Yes, that's one question that needs answering ASAP. I don't know what I want, what I want to do, what I don't want to do, it's pissing me off.....Why can't everything just be damn easy for a change. It's all complicated, work, education, friends, relationships, family, ARGHH!!! I want to be left alone, want to be with someone I like, that's it. I ask nothing more. But off lately, I'm always looking for something more. Quite contradictory I know but I just cannot help it. I just expect so much in life and the tragedy is that I know that I can't have it all.
Guess I just have to get on to my old ways, let the spit fall where it's supposed to. Let things happen the way they're meant to. Just go along the flow and all that crap. I hate it when I can't do anything to stop things from happening, but what the hell eh? Being indifferent is the key here and that is something that I have to turn myself into. But thinking about it itself scares me, cause I just cannot stop caring for people. Hell, I know they wouldn't give a fuck but that's not like me. Fuck man, I get concerned for everyone. Is this the damn shit I get to be honest with people(at times), be nice to them, care for them? I admit it, I just cannot lie when someone asks for my honest opinion about anything. Is this what I get to be outspoken?
If that's all there is, I say fuck each and every of you mother fuckers!!! This is what you will all get for all the shit that you have put me through. Yes, I'm one of those guys who like spreading misery around just so that I know I'm not the only one suffering.
