A Reflecting Conscience

There is a sanctity in the roadless woods,
There are winds on the lonely shore,
There is a society that no one bothers,
I dont love you people less, but I love sanctity more.

I see them on a promenade walking through their high school gates. See him walking out of his college and then I see her too. They are just kids, they are dumb and they want to get married. They think they are innocent, wouldn't even harm a fly. I want to go up to them and scream out "STOP". "Please don't do it. She is not the one for you and he too is wrong for you. You people are going to do unimaginable things to your children."

Rather than giving me your love, your money, your act of fairness.....give me the truth. Why do people have to be so god damn mean to each other, hate each other and shit??? But then i recollect hearing from someone, in life it is not important how strong you are, it's how strong you feel that is more important.

Some people feel that they don't deserve love and that love "died out" of their lives. So they quietly walk into empty spaces trying to close in on the gaps that were left by the past. Hmm....i say the core of one's spirit comes from new experiences. Conscious attention to the basic things that we need in life and a wayward attention to your concerns. A job, a task, a book, a relationship. Why think about circumstances and repercussions? They have no value at all.

Degeneration of Humanity

This should serve as a warning to all nimb-brains who are reading this. Every word that you read of this stupid ass print, you are simply wasting another second of your life. Don't you people have anything else to do with your life? Are your pathetic lives so damn empty that you people just can't seem to find any other better way to spend these moments? Or are you people just impressed with authority, that you give respect to all that claim it? Do you people really think what you are supposed to think? Buy those inanimate things that you're told to want?

Get out of your leaking apartments. Meet someone of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive masturbation and shopping for sex toys. Quit your job and start off a fight with your boss. Prove yourself that you are alive and not a slave to the society. Think about it:- if you don't claim your humanity, you will simply remain as a statistic.

Remember, God does not care for you. What would you rather be, God's worst enemy or nothing? We're the middle children of humanity people and we surely don't have any special purpose in this condemned lives of ours. Unless we get God's greater attention, we have no hope for damnation nor redemption. I say burn the fucking museums, wipe your asses with the Mona Lisa, this way atleast fucking God will know your name.

Hahahahaha....we are nothing but a generation of men raised by women, so is another woman in our lives really an answer that we need??? What the fuck does the society even think of us, that we are fucking lame nuts dwindling down a gorilla's belly??? Even on the bloody aeroplanes, they have the entire worst case scenario carefully jotted down in pamphlets. The oxygen masks ready to save your lives in case of a mid air collision or if you're lucky enough to get hit by lightening 30000 feet in the air, the illusion of safety it seems.

So what do you think, the oxygen is there to save your lives. Fucking Crap I say!!! Oxygen gets you high. During any emergency, you simply take giant panicked, grief stricken breaths and then you become euphoric. You then accept your fate that you are going to die. So euphoric you tend to get that your faces all become blank....just like calm Hindu cows.

What is all this about in the first place you ask??? We are nothing but fucking consumers. By products of a lifestyle obsession. Poverty, crime, rape, murder, holocausts, these shit don't concern me. What concerns me is is those gossip magazines, a damn TV with 200 freaking channels, a lame ass guy's name on my underwear Olestra, Viagra, FUCK!!!

People talk about Hitler and Mussolini and shit, Fuck Hitler!!! Bloody Hitler is polishing his shit off of the Titanic, it's all going to hell dammitt... I propose to you fuckers that lets evolve and let the spit fall where it has to. But hey, that's just me right. May be I'm wrong and its all a bloody tragedy.

The things you own fucking end up owning you. Man, I have seen the smartest and the toughest men living out there. All the potential in the world in this one room. An entire generation of cleaning tables, taking out the garbage, pumping gas, all slaves with white collars eh!!! FUCK, we have all been raised by bloody TVs made to believe that we'll be rock stars and movie gods and what not. But thats not gonna happen. Many of us are slowly being aware of this fact and I am very, very pissed off.

We are on the brink of evolution people, lets get out of our cages and fucking just break free of this society. It is now or it's after your death....

Why Live When you Can End it???

Why does everyone behave or even pretend that everything is A-OK with their lives when it's just not??? I know why, that's because they're just weak. If something's not okay, it is about time they show it that it is NOT OKAY!!! Yesterday, when I was along with my friends in their car, all they could talk about is war, religion, the armies of the world, etc etc. But for some reason, I wasn't even a least bit interested in joining in their conversations. I just looked out the window and saw people all around, minding their own business or just simply riding their bikes trying to complete the "oh so tough" traffic maze.

What attracted my attention was an old couple on a bike with the husband riding an Activa and the wife, holding on to him. Sounds boring doesn't it??? But then I started thinking about the stories that they might have had to tell but no one to listen to them. The adventures the man might have had when he tried to steal that perfect mango from the garden for his lover who was now not his wife, but unfortunately he was chased away by the guard dogs. But no, this didn't stop him, he came back the next day and then the next and then the next until he got what he wanted just to show his love to the woman of his dreams.

Then there was the wife, deep into thoughts when her husband was riding the bike. What was she thinking about at that precise moment??? Was there ever another man in her life who she wished she'd rather be with??? Or was she one of those women who'd rather die than look at any other man EVER in her life??? And even if she had another man, why wasn't she with him, was it because of her family or was it because she was a cold hearted bitch who just wanted to have that one last affair before being labeled as the perfect housewife, a perfect mother, a perfect idol?

But hey, who am I to tag someone as the perfect husband or the perfect slut? Life is what it is, some like to think it to be the best ever and then there are others like me who don't want to do anything with it. Okay that's enough of enlightenment for today so fuck the hell off will you!!!

Just wanna be Fuckin Alone

I'm just tired of everything as of now. I don't want any friends, I don't want any family. All I want is to be alone. The one person who i thought understood me has problems of her own. I don't wanna burden her with my shit. He is turning worse by day. Today he threw the plate of food away on the floor in a fit of anger. She cried as usual and I, I kept myself locked in my room. All I told him was I wouldn't be home tomorrow night and he had to take out the anger on her.

As for the girl I like, I'm just afraid of getting too close to her. That's because I know that I can open up only to her but then I'd look for my strength in her, my support in her. But then she'd just walk away cause she never felt the same for me. I'll be really broken then. What do I say to her when she does walk away??? "How dare you do this, be my strength, support and take it all back by simply walking away from me....."

No, I'll go mad if I do anything of that sort. So yeah, I just need to be alone. Even if I try to look at anyone for my strength, I'd just force myself to look away. I can't take this shit anymore. She wants him to get out of the house but he just won't go. I want him out too, cause most of her problems are all because of him. If only he could change. I'm not asking him to be perfect. But that doesn't mean that he has to be the worst.

So yeah, writing is perhaps the only way I feel that I'm talking to someone. I think I should get used to all of this. Who needs people anyways?????

Wednesday Blindness???

So damn, acidic mindfuck indeed!!! I just cannot get these lines out of my head....its like this annoying song that's just super glued in there. Well thank mother of Lucifer its not that Scooby Dooby Doo song again. This time, its kinda cute....

"Now We're Both Bout Tipsy
You Say You In The Mood
All I Need Is Bout A Hour
Better Yet Maybe Two
Let Me Take You Where I Live
Make it Clear
When I Whisper In Ya Ear
Ya Legs Hit The Chandleer
Passion Fruit And Sex..All In The Atmosphere!"


Oh yeah, nice ha! I think I should be in this mood more often. Its fun. Hyper, but still fun. So yeah, mood's pretty dandy (what thaa!!) By the way, yesterday was not all that teary that I expected it to be, so we can cross out Tears for Tuesday right off the list. Cause hey, who knows, anything might happen if you want it to, right? Life is never all that great Ive learnt but if you stop looking at it that way, everything will seem clear which is why I always keep looking. Because a messed up life seems a lot better than a Brady Bunch kinda life.

Tears For Tuesday

So this is how it feels when you know you're gonna lose something which you always wanted. Damn, its like everything is being unfair to you and life is just pissing all over you. And hey, to top it all of, I'm trying to push someone away from me which could might as well make me cry anytime now. Hmm...its like the feeling that you get just before you're about to cry with that lump just above your stomach. Oh yeah, it feels like hell alrite with no one to talk to about all of this, this is where i say that life officially sucks.

Thats it, may be I was meant to be alone anyways. May be that is for the best. Atleast that way I wont be able to hurt anyone which I have been doing a lot lately. According to everyone, everything is going just A-OK with my life. Hell, some people even envy the kinda life I have. And here I am, ready to do anything to swap places with anyone, anytime because this life just isn't worth it. So here I stand, knowing of what I am throwing away but just can't help but think why does this happen to me.

I look around me and see people look oh so happy with their lives. Sure, I do understand they have their own shit to deal with but the difference between them and me, when I fake about being happy, I just turn all cynical. That's what i call being half broken hearted because I know I can make this right, but everything I do is just not enough.

Everything was in secret and it is in secret silence that I grieve. So yeah, I may be a loser for not doing anything about it, but I am pieces of you.

Thank you,,,its been a bloody Monday.....

Oh yea...its been a bloody Monday alrite....bloodshed all over....guts flying all over the damn place...some ass kissing...some ass whooping and Voila!!!its all bloody over...Shazaam..just like that!!! Hmm...how bitter can I get sometimes. So got some real good news today which I cant tell you...cause then I'll just have to kill you. Alrite then,,,enough of the usual "boom shakaa lakaa" and lets get on what I plan to do now. Now that everything has started going my way, all I have to do is (sorry for using this quote but the cat thing was a bit too sexy I guess)...wait...that's right, wait wait and wait like a stalking wild cat and then pounce on my prey when they least expect it.Okay now that was just daft coming out of my mouth piece.